Vale's last day

Saturday, 27^th – Valeria’s last day

This Saturday was R day, a kind of Rotary day and Valeria had told Bob French already that she was going to help, but the thing is that when she told him that she didn’t know she was going back home on the 28^th. Anyways I said that I would help too thus I could be with her one last time.

We started early in the morning helping at the pancake breakfast, Aaron was there too to help and he would get some communities hours and be with us. It was kind of funny, not really well organized though, they had just one thing to make the pancakes and there were this huge line of starved people, but we couldn’t help besides just wait for the pancakes to get ready. Hillary was there too and after Jenna showed up. It was kind of fun and the time actually went fast. When it was 11 o’clock the breakfast was over and we had to go up beside GT to help in the other event. Bob French gave us the drinks table and we three had to take care of it. So since 11 till 16 we stayed there selling pop, coffee and ice cream. Valerie appeared there and we talked to her about doing something at night at her place, sort of a last reunion before Valeria leaves. We took some breaks too what it was really nice, but we didn’t do anything really excited though; it was pleased to hang out with her and Aaron, I missed Brad a lot and I even tried to call him, but whenever I said his name people didn`t seem really impressed with the idea that I was already looking for Brad and they always said Pffff.. So I realized that without Brad there Valeria was being herself with me again, and I knew that if he were there she would be all over him or vice versa as usual and I don `t like this at all. But it was okay we were having fun and it was the last day with her, so I told myself to not think about any bad thing about anything and just have fun with her as much as I could. And I guess it was cool to be with her there working on her last day, it was the last thing that I could do for her. Whenever we finish the shift Aaron got his communities hours paper signed and we had till 5 o`clock to do something with Vale; Chantel, Jena and Aaron were with us and we just sat down at the library and stayed there for a while. She left to change her clothes, because at 7 we had another thing to do, it would be the Rotary Community Awards Dinner and Bob had got tickets for me and Vale.

So I and Aaron were supposed to get her some pictures from my computer, we got my laptop at home and we went to Brad`s house. When we got there he was kind of weird. I thought he was still feeling sick or something, but actually he was mad at me because I didn`t call him the whole day, what I actually did but it was on his cell phone what he doesn`t use it so it was useless, and I had have call his house, he was there the whole day and it was so boring – he said. So I got sad because the last thing that I want right now is have him mad at me. But at the end it was ok again and I left there to go take a shower and get ready for the dinner.

At 6:30 Bob was at my house ready to go to the dinner. We got there and we figured out that I and Valeria were supposed to help serving deserts. So we had to find people to help us, we called Valerie and Beth and after some begging and blackmail they said that they could help, we also called Aaron and he said fine he would be there.

Valeria and I had a nice conversation about everything, I told her how much I got sad whenever she just left me to became friends with other people and how bad I felt when I saw that she didn`t want to hang out with me. I told her that every time that she was with Brad around, the thing that most bothered me it was the way that he used to treat her in front of me, some jokes that passed the line and made me really jealous and all the other things that he like to do with other girls when I am near. Because, for most part of my emo days the only thing that let me feel bad it was the way that I didn`t have friends and because Brad would be treating me so bad in front of other people. I kind of got used to this way, I believe that he always were with shame of me, he didn`t want to show off how much he liked me and it made and still makes me feel really sad. So I told her how much I liked him and how we use to be when we are together by ourselves and I think she understood how come I am so jealous and why sometimes I am so greedy of him. It is really true that I want him just for me and sometimes it is really exaggerate because I wish he didn`t have his inside jokes and private issues with Valeria, but most of the time I tried to convince myself that it will be okay and he would still love me, even if they were saying bad stuff about me and how much I am jealous and selfish. I explain to her that I liked too much to hang out with them and how bitch she was to me whenever I wanted to stay with Brad or when I talked about him, I reminded her of when she was so in love with Aaron and she kept on telling me how much she liked him and the only subject that we used to talk it was Aaron, and I never complained about that. We sort of didn`t finish the conversation but I guess we could kind of explain ourselves to each other and tried to understand the reasons that we acted to weird for the past month, and it has too much with my relationship, and jealously and lack of respect.

When we done cleaning tables and serving desserts, Jordie and Scottie appeared there so we left with them to Val`s house. Scottie went to pick up Brad and they got there before us by the way. We hang out there and it was nice, we went hot tubing and played Wii. Brad wasn`t socializing again, and I felt that it was my fault, because at his house he sort of said that we should be at the same place together at the same time with Vale because she doesn`t like when we are together.

I was a sad night and I didn`t have him to hug, but I kept my mind in Vale`s last night and how much I am going to miss her. Valerie was going to give Vale a ride home and I went with them in the car, Brad, Val, Scottie and me. So we got there and we all got off the car to give her a last hug, and it was just so hard. Whenever I had her in my arms everything that we lived together passed through my eyes, I was every single moment, laugh, tear that we collect together, and I started to cry and still holding her in my arms I told her that she would be okay and that I love her, she said that she was scared and I told her that she would be fine and she is an amazing person. It was awful to know that I wasn`t going to see her smile again.

Sunday, 28^th

I woke up at 11 and I went to see the Wilsons after all I owed them a visit, but no one was home besides Laura. So I went to see Brad and his parents invited me to spend some hours with them at their boat. So we went for a nice afternoon at the boat, we wander at the Ottawa River; we saw AECL stuff and we stopped at a rock to jump. Brad didn`t want to jump but we convinced him and we both did it and it was really fun. After we went to another beach where we could go for a short hike and up there, there was a lake and the view was really nice. Just Brad and I went there; in the way up we found a garden snake what we carried around. It was a nice time with him alone; we talked about a bunch of random stuff. It so weird now every time that I look at his eyes I feel like it is the last time. I think it is my mind reminding me that I won`t see him anymore in a week.

We came back to town I went to the Wilsons again after supper and we chilled there for a while and after I went back to Brad`s house. I am doing all that i can to be with him as much as possible.